Mommy’s Little Angel
I want to write a note about Emily’s Celebration of Life service, but I want to share today instead, for now. This morning God has given us this great strength. First, with Trey, who said he wanted to ride the bus to school and see his friends and be with his teachers for a while. Jacob was walking out the same time Trey was and I was so glad to know he would be with him on the bus. I told him some children might ask him questions about Emily and talk to him about her, and could he handle those situations and he said yes. He knew he could call us at any time and had a place he could go if he needed alone time. Eddie and I already decided that around 12:30 we would go check on him and bring him back home if needed. We didn’t even get the chance to inform Ms. Holliday that he would be there today. We felt comfortable letting him go because we had met with counselors and teachers 2 weeks ago and everyone was aware of Emily’s condition and what the next week might be like. Trey lived the experiences with us and we explained during that week that God had a great plan for Emily, and that she may go to heaven soon. We answered his questions and assured him she would be just fine, actually better than she has ever been before. It wasn’t long we had a call from Ms. Holliday, just to let us know Trey was doing fine and she would call us if he needed her to. I think she was just as surprised as we were that he was there. That just tells us how important our friends are at a time like this.
Today Eddie and I went to visit with Emily and what an AMAZING sign from heaven we received. As we drove up there was a beautiful butterfly fluttering all around her place. It was Emily showing us how fast she can go! As we drove past to turn the van around the butterfly followed. Then we parked across from Emily and again there she was fluttering all around us, she sure was showing off for us, running on this beautiful day behind our church on these beautiful grounds. I could hear her now “Look at me mommy, and daddy, I can dance now.” After she finished her dance she went a few feet away to the edge of the tree line then back again, following were 3 more butterflies! Emily came around us again then out to play with the other three. I feel she was playing her favorite game of tag. She loved to play tag at home and I can still hear that giggling laugh and pounding feet on the ground as she ran past the kitchen windows running from Trey and her friends. Today was a glorious sight. It made me cry and smile at the same time. Her friends from heaven were with her. Eddie and I needed that so much. I asked and begged for God the first two nights to just give me a glimpse of her, I just wanted to see her standing and I can recall patience, and soon. Well, today Eddie and I received our glimpse from heaven, she wasn’t just standing she was running!
When Emily was a tiny baby, I would sing her this little song, just made it up as I put her to sleep, all along God was preparing me for this journey.
“Mommy’s little Angel baby girl, Mommy’s little Angel baby girl, I love you so much , I love you so much, Mommy’s little Angel baby girl”, I sang it over and over again till she settled down and closed her eyes. I have sung this to her every night for 6 years.
Much love to our Emily (Me Me)
Mommy Dawn

